By the lake side…. :) :)

It was 14th April, 2013 (a day before my birthday 😛 ), when Nick had planned a date. So i met him in the afternoon and we left for the destination, HKV (Hauz Khas Village), a shopping complex cum a great hub of so many great pubs, cafes, and lounges.. We reached there by around 3 pm in the afternoon and both of us were hungry. But instead Nick insisted that he wanted to go to the lake and sit by the side for sometime. So i agreed to that, thinking it would just take 15-20 minutes.. And let me tell you that i was completely unaware of what was about to happen next…

We went down to the lake and started walking by the lake side while enjoying the beauty, the migratory birds and the weather. Just when we sat by the lake side, Nick pulled out a small box from his pocket and said “Happy birthday Baby.. 🙂 “. I was so surprised ’cause i didn’t see coming. On the box, there were few lines written on each side of the box.. Those were the lines which i said to Nick while i proposed to him an year back (which reminds i have to write  a post for that also.. 😛 ). After reading those lines so many times,  i  finally opened the box. It was full of around 12 small folded pieces of paper with something written on it. I opened all of them one by one and realized that nick had written the most special moments both of had had in the past 2 years… He reminded me how he felt when we used to study together and how even he used to try to hit onto me while i was trying to do the same… lol.. (hahahaha 😀 ). I mean i got sooo emotional and overwhelmed that i so wanted to kiss him just by the lake side.. But alas i couldn’t.. My baby that has been the best birthday gift i have ever received in my life.. Love you.. :-*

After this, we decided to try some new place for lunch. So we went to a Himalayan Food restaurant. Both of us were quite apprehensive about the new place. And surprisingly, that place turned out to be great. with good food, good ambiance,  and a great lovely company, my Nick.. 🙂 This followed another walk session by the lake side.. This time we sat a little high up and saw the setting sun. It was so beautiful. Nick also clicked a few pictures of that..

later in the evening, we went shopping for my birthday. Oh shopping with me is such a difficult task  but still my supportive baby never says anything and is always patient with me while shopping.

Later in the night, i had to go to my college to meet a friend of mine, my best friend to whom i am out. Her name is G. She had made a small lamp for me to surprise me. Although her gift didn’t turn out to be what she wanted, but her idea was good and that also made me so happy and i felt so special.. 🙂 🙂

The next day was my Birthday 15th April.. Yay..!!!!  I had spent the day with my friends, family and with Nick as well.. 🙂

Thanks a lot Nick for making my birthday and pre-birthday so special.. 🙂



Rhys.. 🙂


Some recollections……

This post is in continuation with  How it all Began or its the rest of the story about how Nick and I got closer and got committed. 🙂 hope u will enjoy it, it will be a bit lengthy this time as it is going to cover 8 months of how i finally had the courage to come out to Nick.

As Nick had ended the Post by saying that a text message “i’m sorry” marked the beginning of s deep friendship, it wasn’t so. After that message chat, i assumed nick to be my very good friend only to find out recently that he hadn’t considered me that good a friend back then. We used to meet up and hang out occasionally in college since we are in the same class. Had a few text message chat over phone sometimes and that was pretty much the same for around 3-4 months. After that he left for his hometown for vacations. During those vacations i had been stalking him on Facebook (lol i was so desperate to see him) and messaged him once or twice during those vacations.

After the vacations, i decided to study with him (and that was the sole purpose, I did NOT study with him for any other ulterior motive.. lol .. 🙂 ). We started studying together and surprisingly our frequencies matched and we could study very well and efficiently, though most of the time he used to take small naps in between as i am slow reader compared to him. Anyways, we had studied together for around 2-3 months and during that time, we both got a bit closer to each other (in terms of feelings, not physically.. 😛 ).

We started talking to each other more frequently on text messages. It gradually increased, as i would message him a soon as i left his room  after our study session. Once we had our special chat when either us were Dis-inhibited.

After all this playful act (or strategic plan of mine, whatever u wanna call it.. 😛 :D), we finally had our “face to face talk” where we both came out to each other. He started with his past relations, followed by me confessing about my only serious relationship of past. This was followed by a lunch at a restaurant which has now  become one of our favorite places to dine when we go on a date.. 🙂

That very same night, i texted Nick saying “ It was a good day today. We told each other everything about us. Except one thing.” Nick replied ” what’s that ?? ” To which i said ”  I have some feelings for you, from the past few months since we started studying together. I kind of like you.”  At that time, Nick wasn’t into me as he had been waiting for a positive response from the girl he liked since high school, lets call her K. Since he was still hung up on K, he replied to me “ See i appreciate your feelings for me. But I don’t think you cane make my heart skip a beat like K does when i see her. ”  By then i was so desperate to get Nick, that I replied ”  i know that. I won’t expect anything form you then. But lets just spend a night together. No strings attached”  This was CONTRARY to my nature as i don’t believe in  one night stands or hooks ups. I am a relationship guy. But I said this to him because i knew i could change his mind about me. He replied positively for that one night.

After  a week, we spent our first night together , not as a couple but just as “friends”.. Lol.. He left for his hometown the next morning. For next 10 days while he was home, both of us were dying to meet each other. We even had skype chat many times. And it was during this time, that Nick realized even he had developed feelings for me.. In one of our chats during vacations, i had referred to Nick as my boyfriend, which he pointed out and said “ You haven’t proposed me yet. So we are not boyfriends officially. Propose to me and do it well.. ‘coz if i don’t like ur proposal, i will reject it” (he still is such an arrogant ass .. lol .. 😛 :D). So I started planning on how to propose him. I searched net for ideas since it was my first time.

After he returned from home, I decided to propose to him.

How i did that, is also very special for me. I will tell you in detail in my next post.

Do let me know what do you think of our story…. 🙂


Rhys…. 🙂

Just like that……

First of all, I apologize to all of our regular and lovely readers for not being able to put up any post since long. And you know my usual reason, I was busy with studies and work etc etc. hahahaha.. 😀

Anyways, this post is not about any particular incident of our life. Instead it’s about how i had been feeling during the past week. when Nick was out of town to attend his cousin’s wedding and i was here, in the middle of all the work and studies. Usually, whenever i used to get free, i would text or call Nick and ask him for lunch or dinner (whichever it is), or simply text him to say “I am free.. 🙂 “. So it had kind of become a reflex for me to take phone out of the pocket when i get free.

But in the past week, whenever i used to get free, i would take my phone (without even thinking about it, just a reflex it is now), and i would look at the blank screen of my phone, smile at my forgetfulness, and keep my phone back in the pocket. Then all the way back, I would be thinking about Nick…

I have become addicted to you my love… Nick has always been singing the song “Baby I am addicted”- by Enrique. And during the past few days, i realized the actual meaning of this song, and understood why u always sing this for me (I am a bit slow, sorry for that.. lol 😀 )

“Baby i love You.. I am addicted to you… Muuuaaaahhhhhh…” 🙂



I’m feeling lucky…. ;)

I was just going through a blog and was surprised to see a so many trailers of Indian gay movies (Gosh…!!! I didn’t even know that there are several Indian gay movies, coincidentally some of which are currently being shown at Kolkatta Film festival ).

Anyways, the point is while i was watching these trailers i saw a part of the episode of “Days of our lives” ,  where it shows the story of a gay couple Sunny and Will. It was so cute, watching both of them fight with each other, getting closer then making out, thinking about their future etc.

The cute couple… 🙂

Love and much more… 😛 😉

While watching all this i suddenly realized how Lucky I’m to have such a loving boyfriend like Nick… I know its necessary to say this but I don’t want to waste any opportunity and say this to you-

I love you Nick… Thank you for being there for me always.. I am so lucky to have you as my boyfriend, best friend, my guide, mentor, and most importantly LOVE OF MY LIFE…. I am so thankful to God for giving me YOU… Love you always and forever….

Rhys….. 🙂 “



Is it the “Love Gut (or love handles)” or I’m actually getting fat..???? :-O

I recently got onto a weighing machine scale to check if i had gained weight or not , because i was getting a  feeling that i have. When i saw the reading, i was shocked. It had increased 3 kilograms (nearly 6.5 pounds)…!!!! I freaked out and told Nick that we will not have any junk food anymore since i gained so much (actually this wasn’t much according to others and I’m very particular about my weight and health since i was overweight before and had done a lot of hard work to loose weight and have a decent body shape). When my friends got to know about it, they said that its the effect of our love, as people gain weight out of extreme happiness when they are in a relationship. I won’t deny this fact and totally agree that i m very very happy and madly in love with Nick. But considering the recent events, I think its more of the fat getting accumulated in my body than the happiness.

I have been staying at Nick’s place on and off every week since past 1 month… Since Nick lives in our college hostel, eating meals at regular interval (and that too healthy meals) isn’t possible… Home is the perfect place for eating regularly and healthy meals. I decided to stay with Nick for a few days as our exams are approaching and so we decided to study together (and have a little bit of fun as well in between.. lolzz…). So i moved to hostel a month back.

We used to study for few hours and then take a break (you know what do i mean by break.. :P) and used to order food at our place only. After having a sumptuous amount of food, Nick would doze off saying that he can’t concentrate after eating. So we would decide to sleep for half an hour or so, after which we would resume our studies. But nothing goes as planned, especially in our case.


We would wake up after approximately 2 hours and then resume our work. After having studied for another 2-3 hours,  we would start having hunger pains again and this calls for another meal to be delivered to our place. And so now you know, what would happen after satisfying our hunger… We also have food outlets available in our university campus, but the food is do bland that none of us prefer that food.

When Nick saw that i m very much worried over this issue, he made me lie on bed, came close to me and said ” You’re perfect for me.. If  its just a matter of few pounds that you are worried about, you can continue with your exercise after the exams. But for me, you are as always great…!!!!”  I got so emotional when he said those words to me…


Anyways, whatever this is (love gut or fat), I will try to reduce it as soon as i get some free time after my exams.. Since i can’t stop eating sweets ( I got a sweet tooth and that too not a small one 😛 ), I will instead take care of other junkies in my food from now on till i can start working out.

Thank You Nick for loving me so much, you’re such a sweet and loving and caring boyfriend.. I love You….!!!!



” I’m dis-inhibited…….”

17 Aug., 2012

While i was driving back home today, suddenly this statement just crossed my mind and i was thinking the relevance of this. Why this “unusual” line crossed my “conventionally thinking” mind. Then i realized what it is. The full sentence is ” I’ m dis-inhibited right now… You can ask me anything you want dude….” Confused..??? Let me explain ti to you.

Nearly an year ago, somewhere in August or September 2011, I got this message from Nick (and we were not committed back then.. Just good friends only) that ” I went out with some friends and had a few drinks and some what extra may be. So i’m drunk right now and DIS-INHIBITED. You can ask me anything you want, i will answer you……” Let me tell you that at this time, i had already fallen for Nick and i was just trying to find some opportunity to talk to Nick about gays,  sex etc. so that we can get more comfortable with each other and I would ultimately get cozy n all with him.. lol…. 😛 😀

Anyways, i thought its a great chance to ask him about his past life and his past experiences with other guys (if any). But i didn’t ask him anything. Instead i replied him back ” I don’t know what to ask you as of now. But i will surely ask you something later on. Is that fine with you..??”  To this Nick replied ” Naah…!!! You are being an opportunity right now. Don’t waste it. If you won’t ask me anything, then don’t crib later that you never get to know anything about me… You have the liberty to ask ANYTHING….!!!”  But at that moment i was more worried about him rather than getting secrets out of my drunk friend who happened to be my secret crush for almost past 3-4 months…!!!!

I finally replied to him ” how are you feeling ??? You need to get something to drink to avoid hangover tomorrow. Get something refreshing or light to drink and sleep for a while. Message me when your up and feeling a bit better…”  Now i don’t remember exactly what did he reply to it or he even replied or not because i think he slept after my last message and replied after many hours that “ I’m up now. But having a severe hangover. I’ m sorry if i said anything last night in drunken state…”  I was relieved that he didn’t remember anything from last night but at the same time a bit worried that he was suffering from a bad headache and i wasn’t with him to take care of him. Then we exchanged a few more messages and i made sure that he was taking liquids regularly and eating something at frequent intervals, so that he could get out of his “hangover”. 😛 😀

Interestingly, i never needed the assistance of alcohol to get “DIS-INHIBITED”. Usually whenever i was very sleepy, i used to message Nick “hey i m very very sleepy. And not in my full senses. You can ask me anything you want. I want to tell everything about me And by the way i get very emotional in these sleepy states of mind… 😛 😀 ”  My basic purpose behind these kind of messages was to create a level of understanding between the two of us, so that i could tell him about my feelings for him and about my past with a guy (as i wasn’t sure if Nick was actually gay/bi and what he turned out to be straight and then he might have humiliated me and left me, and i couldn’t afford to loose such a great friend).

Once around October or November, i remember that i messaged him in the morning ” Good morning..!! I had very nice dreams last night. And now i am having a hard on.. ” I know the last line was too random and desperate but i wanted to talk to him and tell him everything. By now, even Nick had got an idea that i wanted to tell him something and that once in a while i was trying to hit on him.. lol… To that message of mine, he replied (just to tease me) “It’s called morning wood.. And its normal… :D” That’s it.. Nothing else. Anyways, I thought i have tried a lot. So i just thought of giving up then.

But then a few days later, we both were chatting over phone normally, and some how the topic of past life (esp. sex life) came up and i said to Nick ”  I am so sure you never had any sex life.. You seem to be a boring guy and i don’t think you even ever had any girl in your past 😛 😀 “. To this he replied ” Don’t be so sure about this. You can never predict anything about anyone and especially not about me without knowing me…” I got a bit excited that our conversation was finally going somewhere and i might be able to know about his feelings and his past and i could finally confess everything to him. So i replied ” Is it Nick…??? Then why don;t you tell me everything about you right now and let me see if u ever had any past sex life or even have anyone right now.. What say dude..??” Nick replied “These things are not told over phone or messages. These explicit details of my past can be explored only in person, when we are talking face to face…”  Yes..!!! Finally i got what i wanted. A personal talk with him about our past and everything related to our sex life… I replied to him in a way so as to hide my excitement and show to him as if it would be normal for me to have such a conversation with him in person and so i said ” Sure, why not… Lets sit together some time soon and have a discussion about our past and about your “mysterious” sex life…. :D:D ” 

So we decided a time and date to have this discussion where we both finally opened up to each to other and expressed our feelings. And surprisingly, he also confessed that he had some feelings for me. What happened in that meeting would require another long blog entry which i might write next in a few days.

I hope you liked the story so far about Nick and Rhys. 🙂