Often I come across people who would say this to me in a pathetic pity tone “Oh you are committed.. You don’t know how it feels like to have random sex and hook-ups.” or “You are wasting your youth, your life.” or “Hahaha !! You can never realize the satisfaction in having random meaningless sex” or “You just a committed boring guy.” , and muhc more similar rubbish crap….
I wanna shoot out to all the single men in in the LGBTQ community that being in a relationship isn’t the worst thing in a gay’s life. I love being in a relationship, and I feel lucky to be with a guy who loves me more than anyone.
Yes I am a gay guy without any past hook ups or random one night stands. But I don’t feel that this is something I would regret in my life ever. I am not the kind of guy who can have random meaningless sex with a guy whose name I get to know in the morning after the hangover (and sex) !
No one has a right to judge me by passing such hideous comments on my relationship status, or by pitying me. Just because you cannot handle a relationship or get your shit together, that doesn’t give you any privilege or an upper hand in life to look down upon committed guys like me and say such disgraceful things.
Secondly, another irritating thing I have been hearing recently is that since gays are superficial, I should dress up properly so I can be liked by others based solely on my appearance. I am sorry but I beg to differ guys. I don’t believe that outer superficial appearance is everything. Stop judging a book just by its cover !!!
I do not and cannot bend according to so many stereotypes of the gay community itself that I would lose my identity eventually. We already have a lot of stereotypes of the straight hetero”normal” society. Please do not pressurize the people of your own community by putting up many more such stereotypes.
I just wanted to vent out my anger that has been piling up since a long time, and I had no one to talk to.
Good night folks !
Stating the obvious. Long distance is tough. Like really really tough. Barely a month in and I already miss Rhys with a visceral longing I did not even know I could feel. How will I get through the remaining five months?
It is not that I am lonely. It is just that even with company, I feel incomplete. These past few years have had their good time and bad. But through all of it Rhys has been by my side. And now I seem to have forgotten how to be by myself. This past weekend some friends of mine took me to a party ( coz I have been staying cooped up in my room.) It was a lovely venue and ordinarily I would have enjoyed myself, but it just felt weird to be by myself. I felt like an odd bundle of elbows and knees. It just doesn’t feel right to dance with anyone else anymore ( I honestly never thought I would turn down a dance but I guess I was wrong )
Where is my baby ? I can’t dance without him …..
Meanwhile my friends think I am being Mr. Snooty for avoiding them and my family is scared I will get sick from staying in my room day after day. But I see no point in going out because it ends up with me sulking and missing Rhys and offending whichever unlucky soul happens to be with me at the time. So it is youtube binge watching vlogs and a jar of cookies day after day.
Gosh ! I really need to stop feeling sorry for myself. About time I pull myself together.
Maybe tomorrow. Right now I still have my hand in the cookie jar. A few more vlogs to watch. I think I will watch other happy gay couples till I fall asleep.
P.S.- Meanwhile my baby just messages and he is getting Fro-Yo! Oddly enough, I am more excited by this than I have been all week!
Rhys out did himself this time. He baked a cake for me ! A gorgeous moist fudgy chocolate cake with a chocolate ganache icing and m&ms ! And this was his first cake EVER !
Of course the Birthday eve meant a LOT of kamikazes and LIITs and I think there was some food involved but I can’t really remember any more. Rhys of course got the wonderful job of driving a very drunk me home and tucking me into bed but sleep was the last thing on my mind. And I got my way too – after all I was the birthday boy, albeit drunk and naked by then.
The cake was delicious, especially off my bae’s lips ! What is it with dark chocolate , the rich aroma, the smooth texture that melts oh so slowly on your tongue – new realms of pleasure. Though I suspect the special service may have heightened the pleasure. I always was of the opinion that chocolate is too perfect to be improved upon. Then Rhys did this –
Definite improvement …. wouldn’t you say ?
Love you Rhys :-*
Well okay if you wanna get technical , its not my birthday YET ! But I am soooo excited. The first birthday in ages when I won’t have to worry about exams and studies and hospitals and all. So super psyched !
Also, this is the last few days I get to spend with Rhys before I leave for a vacation and he leaves for his new job in the US. Have mixed feelings about that – though I am super super super proud of my baby for getting this job, I know I’ll miss him A LOT. The last time he was away for three months, it was torture. For the both of us. But I guess we’ll get through it.
Right now though, I won’t dwell on that.. Right now is party time. I know Rhys has an amazing two days planned and I can’t wait to get started !
It’s ( almost ) my birthday !
The awesome people at Harmless Hugs in Delhi put together the first LGBTQ+ Flashmob in India. And what a spectacle it was ! Such a proclamation – We are here and we are Queer ! Deal with it …..
Hello all you lovely peeps,
Well, needless to say, we have been very bad bloggers. Over the last year or so we just haven’t blogged all that much now, have we ? And for that we are so very sorry !
Just a quick update for now.
Rhys and I have graduated Med School and now are officially doctors ! Yay !
Also in other news, Rhys is moving to Kentucky for 6 months starting Sept coz he got accepted at a research position there. And I am so proud of him ! But it means we will be living apart for 6 months 😥 So these days we are spending every moment we can together.
Till next time
The fragility of human existence is brought home to us every day as medical students. But today it has hit a lot closer to my heart.
Rhys got a needlestick injury at work today. While it is usually documented as an occupational hazard for healthcare professionals like us, now that it has happened to one of us – ‘occupational hazard’ seems like a mockery of the dead weight that has fallen on us ever since it happened this morning.
Worse news – The patient was suffering from AIDS which increases the risk for Rhys a lot.
Thankfully we could start the drugs within a couple of hours of exposure. And that is the only good thing in this bleak scenario. Rhys must take them for like 4 weeks and he has been put on the high risk regime. The side effects are already beginning to show. And he must continue to work – he has two 24 hr duties coming up next week.
Please pray for us… for him …….
Pray that we have some good news to post here 6 months from now…..
If ever we needed your prayers this is it !!!